did I mention I've a passion for cooking too ?

It been some times back since I put on my apron; apart from meggie mee, the most recent dish I've cooked is fried rice which is almost half a year ago -.-''. Have no idea where my mood came from thus I decided to do up egg croissant for brunch & mango pudding for dessert @ night =)

下雨了吗?

身旁的朋友不开心,我感受到了。。
可能体会不到吧, 因为事情并没发生在我身上所以我也不多说。
但今晚的我心情很差， 我也说不上来。

事情往往无法控制，可能这就是所谓人生的考验吧!
09，10 年没差， 日子一久的过。。
人人都有了新目标， 钻大钱， 升值 等等。。嗨!

今年的生日愿望没许因为它辜负了我一次在一个简单的愿望!!
今天， 我就在相信你多一次!

小妹我希望身旁的人think simple, 保持开心。。常常记得运动，身体健康。

晚安了朋友s，

雨伞在我这。。

Moment - 12.12am

Condition : Weary
Mood : Equanimous
Itune : Syndicate by The Fray
Noise : Fan
Book on hand : Executive Charisma by D.A.Benton
Weather : Cold
Temperature : 20 degree
Smell : Perfume
What's on mind : 雨过天晴，怎么不见彩虹 ?

Receding

Is it end December already? That's fast..Phew, thank god I'm alive with mine limbs attached ;)
It reminds me of the tendency or how I yearn for the secs to tick faster so I could get out of sillypore. However, all this doesn't seem to be a priority, at lease at this point of time. To get my feets back on the ground; retrieving how ambitious I am 3 years ago is what tt has been differing from me but it does'nt matter too, loaded with too much stuff , how ambitious can I gets?

Without knowing, I kinda cultivate some kinda laziness inside me for being stuck in my previous company for a period of times. I gonna admit I'm getting more lazy & it's my current biggest enemy!

2009 will slip under our noses and fall right in 2010 in just another 2 days.
I’m ending the 2009 on a note of uncertainty: an unknown territory, an unexplored terrain.
Perhaps I'm just being apprehensive or rather there is a sense of foreboding....I'm bewildered.

It’s all gonna be exciting, isn't it? I just hope it won’t change me too much.
My new year’s resolution is probably to hang on to my soul...maybe ?
This turbulent creature is called transition & I’ll just have to wait till its tumbling waves wash me ashore.....Meanwhile, what I'll do is just hang on tight to my oars.

Simple

Born with mild intellectual disability (MID), slow in learning and often gullible, 19-year-old Shan Shan is an innocent and friendly girl. Like any teenager, Shan Shan is going through a coming of age, yearning for a special someone.... I was watching this show on channel U an hr ago...

Very often we heard, including myself who once says tt happiness, is being content with watever you have or gets. It’s being able to appreciate what you have and bah bah bah .. don't you get enough of the life philosophy saying or quotes?! I'm getting sick of it every now and then ..

How can human ever be contented in terms of the beans in their pockets, the clothing in the wardrobe, the cars in the garage or rather putting being materialism aside .. how about the expectations in relationships between mankind? you just keep asking for the better when it is already good enough , isn't it ? Crap !
Being appreciative ? Few decades ago, water is so precious thus now we are told to appreciate water but when water is just so damn easy to come by to our generations , how do we change our mentally overnight ?!

Prolly after watching the show ... happiness is perhaps being simple, think simple.. at least to me.
Not complex , not unfolded or entangled; uncombined, not compounded; not blended with something else, not complicated.

Think Simple , Be Simple

Whataya Want From Me by Adam Lambert - Jer chOrds

Hey, slow it down

whataya want from me Whataya want from me

Yeah I’m afraid

whataya want from me Whataya want from me

There might have been a time

And I would give myself away

Oooh once upon a time I didn’t give a damn

But now, here we are

so whataya want from me Whataya want from me

Just don’t give up I’m workin it out

Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down

It messed me up, need a second to breathe

Just keep coming around

Hey, whataya want from me Whataya want from me

Whataya want from me

Yeah, it’s plain to see (plain to see) that baby you’re beautiful

And it’s nothing wrong with you (nothing wrong with you)

It’s me, I’m a freak (yeah) but thanks for lovin’ me

Cause you’re doing it perfectly (it perfectly)

There might have been a time

When I would let you step away

I wouldn’t even try

But I think you could save my life

Happy Boxing Day !

Christmas Gift

The venue might not be a favorite rendezvous for everyone for there's nothing much we can do.Nonetheless,am sincerely pleased & glad that my buddys folk out their time and spread the laughter esp Ms popular, Pp. ;) Perhaps to me, I'm not specifically celebrating x'mas but is more of staying close in contact with my buddys ;) ... Again , anxiety & excitements raised as e ticking of clock sound tt drew the time nearer...

I read a book few days back and came across this author who uses the 80/20 business rules & he relate into life...happiness.It says .. 80% of your happiness comes from 20% from your times and I have no reason not to agree! The greatest gift I received all year round perhaps is the time whoever have given me & vice versa.

Thanks everyone for this gift that I'm always receiving it.. ;)

Merry Christmas'09

To make viture out of necessity

I loiter around in a daze at Raffles Quay ...My soul is nowhere, am very quiet which anyone will tell you is unusual for me . I'm preoccupied, completely engrossed in thought or rather I'm lost and lost the ability to arrange them. For the first time I felt myself being VERY indecisive, irrational & impulsive.

That very moment I stepped out from that door , the world collapse on me. I felt exactly like a piece of shit or even worst than that.. It scared the shit out of me , uncertainty and ambiguity lead to such a extend that the sense of fear overcome me. After all, I'm not that brave and daring but a plain Coward & I gonna admit it.


This's gonna be a really big turning point in my life... am I really up to it ?!
Sometimes I asked myself if I'm asking for a Bang & Oulfsen over SONY ?
Am I a self-motivator or a demotivator seeking challenger ?!
Who and what exactly am I .. I thought I know myself to a certain extend but one snobbish women came right up to my face indirectly tell me that I sux . For a moment, I thought so but I realised you sux as much as I do.. I felt shameful for you that you had such low EQ given your designation.

I'm disappointed for a lot of different things and ppl. Tonight, I just feel like a wall has fallen on me and even though I know I'm strong enough to move, I feel paralyzed. Maybe I ask too much. Maybe I think, for just this one time, things will be or end differently. Maybe, after all of the fighting, I'm wrong. Maybe all of this, isn't worth fighting for, at all.

At this point in time,I need to take a deep breath and get a balanced view of the situation so that I'm able to face the challenges ahead. Damn that women again for making me a laughing stock. Laugh for all you want for I'm not afraid b'cos when u laugh, I learnt and your integrity is proven.

When u most wanted mi outta this game , sorry but I'M GAME FOR IT !

Shawty, 23 Dec'09

Shawty's journey continue...

365 days later,apparently... my blog survived and so do I.

Growing with each struggle, fear and pain no matter big or small..crying my eyes out when smth depressed the shit out from me...
Staying close with my folks who are able to make my day even when we sip coffee while silent comes in, there isn't any kind of embarrassment.
Getting home everyday looking at Fibi wag her tail gives me a sense of comfort.

If I could handle relationship decisions from giving my all to a firm no, going from financial stable close to broke in the shortest time period imaginable, job change, putting my feets into an expensive hobby, screwing up stuff which I don have the intention to plus random personal losses...I could handle anything, anywhere, right?

Say ''I do''

I Rather - Jer chOrds

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else

I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself

I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

Wendy's is back @ lau pa sat

When will it be A&W ? :/

Singapore's top ten most-searched terms

1. Singapore Budget 2009
2. Ris Low (BOOMZ)
3. Facebook
4. Ming Yi ( Oh you mean the monk who lead a lavish lifestyle ! holy crap )
5. Singapore Pools (Thats the way sillyporeans , Huat Ar!)
6. AWARE (Are you aware ?)
7. F1 Singapore
8.Singapore Airlines and Travel Agencies (True colours of sillyporeans)
9.MacDonald's (i'm lurvin it! craving for supper all year round)
10. Jamie Yeo (Gossips not to be missed!)

Vertical Horizon - Everything You Want

ROM photoshoOt

I received my first paycheck thru photOgraphy ....

pre-exams convo

Feng : ah jer , I think I'm sick ...

Jer : u don gei siao la !

Feng : Haa! I'm feeling feverish and stomach pain and nausea..cold feets and cold palms..blurringg visson..I think might be h1n1 beta version.

Jer : seriouslyyyy..tml i shall see how jialat are u , better find ways to hide your rosy cheeks.. faster go mug la..

Feng : Haaa! serious man , I'm loading kopi less milk outside my house now , gonna mug till 2am..sibei sian , owaz get this sysptoms whenever I don feel confident for my exam.

Jer : LOL... when did u ever felt confident taking exams ? kopi less milk ? u at some kopitiam or atas starbucks?

Feng : Hahah, kopitiam leh

Jer : gei siao again ! must be watching some soccer , man u or liverpool ar ?! or some re-run channel 8 kuku show ?

Feng : go see the mms I sent u , now walking home liao ..

Jer : I saw it la .. damn bo liao leh but is your style sia ! faster mug la and give mi a call if u encounter diff, don act h1n1 anymore cos nobody will believe you -.-

His mms to me ... damn lame -.- and for your info , he is my class rep.

P/s : Best of luck to my mates for tmr paper !

Accounting ! I gonna get over u ..awwwwwww @.@

an ni si bo ?

Come some of the Hokkien convo in MSN.

Jer : hoh seh .. meet gui diam ?
Jer : 12 diam arh , SI booo
Pen : wa 1 diam la
Pen : 12 diam ka za liao
Jer : arbo ... jiak za eh dinner lo ?hoh bo ?
Jer : gong...... 5 diam la , ai mai ?
Jer : jiak ga 7, 8 diam , wo ai teng chu tuk chey leh
Pen : hoh seh lo
Pert : so mia zai gui diam? (dreaming away -.-)
Jer : aiya .. wo ai koon liao la
Jer : wa lang mia zai sms la
Jer : jiak simi mia zai gong uh
Pert : so 5 ?
Jer : awww.. ni diam diam meng
Pen : HAHAHAHAA

Nice one buddys... ;)