四十九天

Today mark the day that you have left us for the 49th days.
you still occupied my mind very often and I really miss you.

as pals outgrow each other

How long you’ve known someone isn’t a good gauge of closeness.
What matters most is being able to let your guard down and be yourself with that person you matter.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you.

I'm hoping that someone would grant me a wish to perform this song before the next moment even happen.
This is the only one song that stirred up my emotion, got me down on my knees and my tears .

I could relate so well to every single words in the song that triggers me so deeply.

It wasn't the bad experience, but those good memories that's kinda hurts.

and Adele, you're way too awesome. <3



I heard That you're settled down
That you Found a girl and you're Married now

I heard That your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things, I didn't give to you

Old friend, Why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back Or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me," I begged "I'll remember," you said

Sometimes it lasts in love, But sometimes it hurts instead."

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday It was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise
Of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me," I begged , I'll remember," you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, But sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares, No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes, They are memories made.
Who would have known, How bittersweet this would taste?

Sometimes it lasts in love, But sometimes it hurts instead

I'm happy because you are.

亲爱的傻瓜，

我的人生就像王菲的歌曲一样，你快乐所以我快乐。

一路走好

人类不只是一个奇妙的动物根是一群恶心的动物。
没有被车撞到， 不知道什麼叫痛。 但一转眼它们又望了那感觉。

人因尊严， 金钱， 名誉， 忘了‘情’。
人的丑陋我看多了， 最不想看到的也让我碰上。

我的字典从来没有后悔但现在。。多了个遗憾。
就这样心中多了一把刺。

因这件事， 我看清了所谓的朋友，家人与亲戚。
其实也该料到的， 只是抱着无畏的希望，再次确认吧。
伤心， 无奈， 可怜。。只告诉自己应该习惯。

你難得來看我卻又離開我，讓那手中瀉落的沙像淚水流。
当全世界的人都说你的是非， 我只选择记得你的好与美。
如果离开对你是一种解脱， 我希望你一路走好。
你仍然活在我心中， 若没有你就没有今天的我。

下一辈子， 我们在相遇让我好好报答你。

你在哪?

一想到你当时那无奈的心情，我就憎恨自己无法陪在你身边。
孤单， 寂寞的你真的拿出了很大的勇气。辛苦你了但你真的很傻。
眼泪流了一天， 眼睛种了， 也很累。 但一旦闭上眼睛我就想起你。
啤酒一瓶一瓶的灌，我还是无法入眠。只见眼皮都快破了， 眼泪仍然在流

我很想你， 有很多话想对你说。

C. Message

亲爱的，
为何你说走就走， 留下多一份遗憾给我。
为何你不给我一个机会让我报答你对我的恩情。
为何你不让我实现我对你的诺言；

我说过我会陪着你走下去。 就算全世界的人都不信你，我信。
我说过年尾会带你出国游玩。
我说过我一有空，会带你出门走走
我说过不管什麼事，我一定在。
我说的一切的一切你為什麼都不当一回事。

我责怪自己為什麼那时不拿起电话打给你。
我责怪自己為什麼没有办法说服妈妈和姐妹们多多关心你。
等到失去你时，她们才落泪。 我当时很想开口大骂我妈和亲戚们。我很恨她们。
我责怪自己為什麼当时默默的不坑声卻让你的女儿扭曲你的为人。
我责怪自己為什麼那么没用。

亲爱的，
谢谢你贡献了一大部分的美好童年给我。
谢谢你在我小的时候那么疼我。
谢谢你在最无奈的时候想起我。
谢谢你信任我。

你永远在我的心里。 我爱你。

As I comprehend this profound loss, let myself cry knowing each tear is a note of love rising to the heavens

人的丑陋

Friends comes to you when they are in trouble, they seek attention from you to concern for them. They called you up, asking for help and when is the other way round, they says they are not available. Or maybe I'm just someone lousy. OK . I admit.

People lay their eyes longer on people who are handicap and this is very disturbing to me.
fuck it. They don deserve your observations throughout the whole bus journey, you ain't a CCTV.

and................so much more.

ɥɔʇıq ɐ ɥɔns s,ǝɟıl

Dear Aunt,

Dear Aunt,

Your journey wasn't easy for you & my heart really goes out to you.
Life's probably fair I made believe but somehow there are many times we doubt ourselves.

I would never understand the pain you've gone through for I have not experienced but have a little faith in me that I will go through this darkest period with you. I wouldn't promise you forever like issuing an empty cheque but as long as I'm capable of doing so.

I'm sorry for being such a wasted & useless person. I'm truly sorry that
my capability is limited. I may not have a million dollars in my pocket but I make sure you have the same treatment like I do. Even if it cost me a fortune to repay your kindness, I would gladly do so.

Even if the world despise you, just remember I doesn't belong to the world.
You don't own anyone a living and no one is indispensable. Live like you have a thousand wish to fulfil and you seek for your own happiness.

I thank god for the second life that was given to you and I really do appreciate it, having the opportunity to see you again. So god, I beg you to give her a little faith & hope.

May the force be with you, Aunt.

Sincerely,
Niece.

知道

想你是很好
但我的心在退烧

逃　假装是在寻找
我　明明就不需要
人的心若是关不牢
爱到不知如何是好
你能给多少

逃　从天涯到海角
烧　泪早就不知不觉烧干了
你爱的谁都看得到
可是我就很不想要
所以我这样放开了

现在你很幸福

谁都不要再提醒那一段从前
有些事不面对, 你反而安心安全
我无权再动摇你的世界

现在你有了幸福 有人照顾 应该知足
我不像他 从不让你哭

ƃuıɥʇɐǝɹq ǝq oʇ ǝɔıoɥɔ ʎɯ ʇusɐʍ ʇı ˙ƃuıʌıl ʎlǝɹɐq ʇnq ǝɟıl ƃuıʌıl

吉隆坡之旅 。Malaysia, KL-Day 4

吉隆坡之旅 。Malaysia, KL-Day 3

吉隆坡之旅 。Malaysia, KL-Day 2

A late night sleep ended up missing local breakfast the next day....
1.05pm opposite @Low Yat Plaza, 又一餐。

三色奶茶 - 3*
I always like to have this in Singapore, gelyang while having dim sum. A bit disappointing over here cos this is like 300% sweet ya?

*My friend ordered this with another Teh O for himself without telling me this is overly sweet. Thanks, pert.

牛油鱼饭 - 4*
I love the butter corn sauce fish and erm.. the egg?

They lost the 1* due to texture of the rice, is pretty hard =x

特质辣椒 - 5*
Do I have to say anything more? ^^

1.58pm - 金河广场
走走看看 / walk walk see see

The shop is generally fairly similar to Singapore except that the prices tag onto the clothes is really affordable! You will be paying for the goods but not the service ok!

3.36pm -金河广场
3rd level - Bloody Ink Tattoo



~~~After an hour ~~~~
ZzZZZzzZZ

Tadah ! ~~~ Finally . GXGX!

7.10pm - KLCC tower, Nandos!

Ordered 1/4 chicken, mild spicy with 2 side dishes.

Yet to try it in Singapore as the reviews weren't that good but I thought it was pretty nice here. =)

10.30pm

Langat San - KL City View

Candle Light Dinner, anyone ? 几 Lomantic 一下。。

Butter Sauce Chicken Chop @ Gasoline - 4.5*

DAY 1 experience was nice, in terms of the currency exchange rates, there is practically nothing to complain about. I kinda enjoy the shopping @ the mall though I have not bought any stuff =( and so I will be back soon with my shopping khakis on a huge shopping spree! The best part I truly enjoyed is the supper @ hill top overlooking the city view of KL.

What I hate most is the restroom! Dirty, no tissue and must pay pay pay! Are we taking things for granted or is just them?

吉隆坡之旅 。Malaysia, KL-Day 1

Hello from KL, Malaysia with loves!
Time checked: 5.04am.
Current playing:离不开你 - 陈小春

Left house @10.30 with a mixed feeling looking into the expression Fibi gave. She seems to know I'm leaving house for a couple of days. I must say I really miss her. I thought to myself, if she could open her mouth and ask for my stay, I would gladly do so.

Anyway, I just unpack my bag and realised that I did not bring my camera charger and all thanks to my stupidly that i thought that all battery should be the same. BUT NO! they are out for our moolah and that why it comes in different sizes! what is this! Awful feeling that kills all my anxiety! .... So what's tml itinerary?! =(

As my battery is running low, so am I .... bye for now!

永远的谜底

其实我分不清你何时说的话是最真实...真的能像你所说的吗?

Been wanting to have you....

Uhmmm... Should I buy?

decades of waiting...

oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah! Finally something to cheer me up a liitle. I'm feeling EXCITED! =)

who says what, you never know.

Time checked: 3.55am
Current playing:Broken Down - Kevin Hammond

Easy money never comes easy, it comes after certain amount of hard work. I never realised that it practically took me a while to understand this. I'm felt totally wasted.
Be it being stupid, ignorance at that point of time. I should have known this basic rules. well, everything is too late now. and so I'm now waiting for the verdict.
I hope this is not an expensive lesson learnt.God bless.

Next up, decision making is never easy! I seriously hate this part right here. Not exactly clear of what I am pursuing but somehow it doesn't seem right and I guess I am calling it off. I am liable for any consequences and must be fully responsible for my own action. right? will someone please invent such software/system to calculate a yes/no, for goodness sake!

I would love to have you every now and then

Beers are true to me and therefore I love them so much.

If I had a drink or two. I lost my usual momentum and gradually becomes quiet. It makes me disclose who I am when I'm weak. I need that moment when I don't have to wear a mask. don't you?

If I had a jar or two, I kinda get a bit high and got myself caught into the beat. Maybe the rhythm to move my feets or getting the hang of singing out loud, disclosing how disturbing my moves are and where all my pitches has gone to. I wouldn't care much, revealing the crazy side of me because I'm subconscious.

If I had a tower or two. I will be at the peak before anything else. I could hold your hand being the real me while I put the blame on the after beer effect. wouldn't that be nice? oh yea. such a a**hole...

And when the hangover kicks in, I wouldn't complain about it.
Afterall, is give and take, isn't it a fair game played?
How nice would this be if it happens in our life journey, in everything we do.

Cheers!

Time checked: 3.40am
Mood: .....
Current song playing: 現在我很幸福 - 黄丽玲
Ps: Happy Birthday Mi Siao! =)

Just when I thought I could reach for it, there is certainly something I can't go against..

So much so for being enthusiastic, positive about something that i reckon it will turn out the way I suppose. There is apparently another thing I can't go against or rather I wouldn't go against.

Much effort has been into it but the status was reflected on hold or maybe a full stop? It makes me much depressed that I wouldn't want to start thinking about when the next sun rise would be.

Sigh! well... Walking down the streets, looking at the receipt after I withdrawn some cash. I decided to commit suicide. I bet u never know having no moolah in your pocket is worst than anything else and who says money couldn't buy u happiness! bull shyt! .. Oh ya, back to committing suicide, I diverted my attention by being a shopaholic for the next 4 hours.. I easily spend $80bucks without feeling a thing. uhm..guess I'm serious about dying on that worst path. Couldn't figure out when is the world gonna end... I continue shopping.

Maybe god took a pity on me because nothing else caught my eyes. sigh! Anyway... I have no idea how to express my mood today. I decided to arrange my photos and revamp my room but I ran out of materials just when my engine got heated up. Thanks! -.-'

Anyway... half way done ...

Friendship Compatibility

Pei says that a Cancer clicks with Virgo and ... taDah! 101% So True =)

When Cancer and Virgo form a friendship, it creates a strong and down-to-earth intimacy and connection that will only grow stronger with time. Both Signs are goal-oriented and disciplined. Cancer and Virgo are sincere and devoted to their goals and to one another. Both have a strong sense of purpose. They admire each other: Virgo respects Cancer’s quiet strength and dedication, while Cancer appreciates Virgo’s adaptability.

This is a friendship that may take time to develop, but it will get stronger. The Cancer-Virgo pair is based on common sense and strong principles. These friends can be materialistic, as they both enjoy comfort, but they are willing to work hard for the things they enjoy. Difficulties can arise if Virgo is too critical for Cancer’s easily-bruised feelings; Cancer needs to understand that this is Virgo’s nature and not a personal attack. Virgo might dislike Cancer’s stubborn streak but can learn to be patient and understanding of the Crab’s nature.

Additionally, Virgo enjoys indulging Cancer — the Virgo’s commitment to service combines well with Cancer’s love of nurturing, thus pleasing both. Cancer is ruled by the Moon, and Virgo is ruled by Mercury. Both of these Planets are close to the Sun, so they’re always in the same neighborhood even though they are very different. The Moon is matriarchal; it’s about cultivation and nurturing, both of which are important to Cancer. Mercury is about communication, and it’s androgynous — Virgo will take on the form that it chooses. Virgo has a more intellectual approach, but they are adept at reading other people. Because of this, Virgo can quickly understand and become the devoted and perceptive friend that Cancer needs, and they won’t argue about whether one is being more attentive than the other. Cancer is a Water Sign, and Virgo is an Earth Sign. Earth Signs are about possessions, and the Cancer-Virgo friends usually like to be surrounded by comfortable, well-crafted possessions.

The Water Sign relies on emotion and intuition, making Cancer the fueling force behind the friendship in a quiet way. They share aspirations to prosperity and a love of a fancy home life. Additionally, they are a practical pair, and they rarely have problems caused by one partner’s lack of control. Cancer is a Cardinal Sign, and Virgo is a Mutable Sign. While Cancer tends to propose new ideas, Virgo likes to move from one thing to another as the feeling takes them. Because of their ubiquitous nature, it’s easy for Virgo to find a place in Cancer’s plans.

Virgo can remember Cancer’s plans and eventually will make them produce something even if Cancer has moved on. The best aspect of the Cancer-Virgo friendship is their dedication to their shared goals and interests. Both enjoy stability and nice things, and Virgo likes helping Cancer achieve their goals. Their mutual interests make theirs a highly compatible friendship.

不只是朋友

你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友

还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵

你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友

还想有那么一点点自私的占有

我的车站

人生过得太快，我选择当自己的司机, 寻找着你

但久了，我的归属感却不见了

当你出现了之后， 才领悟这一切都是值得的

可是你始终选着离开

我只好等待， 下一个出现的还是你

idk

Is hard to wait for something u know that might never happen but it is harder to give up when u know it is everything u want.

Blogging @ buddy buddy cheers after countless drinks...

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Till we meet again

Time checked: 6.55AM

45分钟的路程，空荡荡的街， 雨水打在脸上。
很想哭但眼泪却不见得到哪， 也许干了吧。(这时才明白张惠美的歌)
香烟一根一根的点燃，只怕失了魂的我不知该往那儿走。

自以为潇洒的我， 拿得起就放的下。
原来我的心胸。。很小。或是看对人事务吧。
酸了! 我就认了吧， 我真的不服输。

我不懂的欣赏这门游戏，怎么不是一加一等于二呢!
我把性命都赔上了但却输了。我不甘心。

Check out: 7.30am

The process