01 Nov 09, 6am

6am , 01 Nov 2009 ...
Time passes so much faster than I can imagine and I'm once being reminded that I'm outta job.Been real busy with school assignment recently that I could hardly breathe & many a times I have no idea how to pull through all these.... take a deep breath, do some planning and to take one step at a time seem to be the only way out..

6am ...coffee is extra good,smell great & laptop screen is bright, painfully bright! Just managed to get one assignment down and there goes another one ! Tme line is drawing near & once again I feel the pressure coming in from all kind of directions.

6am ...right down corner of the screen shown ppl signing in into MSN, it makes me ponder if they have just finished their Halloween party hrs ago ? if they cant get to sleep, or are ready to order some McD breakfast online.. apart from unknown who is working on assignment as well ...I know nth else and is too tired to know anything more.

6am.. I look out to the streets, motorcyclists and driver cut from 1st lane to the 3rd & making ''necessary'' U-Turn on a one way lane.

6am..I heard the cleaner sweeping the floor, car speeding and some birds chirping away.. early bird gets the worms ?

6am .... How many more of 5am 6am keep me in thoughts ?I want no more hearing at my heartbeat at this quiet hour....

6am.. I'm typing nonsense...

Good morning pals..

Moment-1.25am

Condition : Tired
Mood : Uh..good
Itune : Time for miracles by Adam Lambert (soundtrack for movie 2012)
Noise : Cars on the road
Book on hand : Enough for the day
Weather : Extremely coOling
Temperature : 26 degree
Smell : Rain
What's on mind : Toking to you everyday becomes my habits. What's next ?

Lets play at thurday night.

First day of unemployed life

Interviewed on my first day unemployed ... hah , how hardworking am I ! hahah

After which, head to central library for some research on Key Account Management but to no avil after spending hours there...-_-''

Unknown msg me to club very randomly, perhaps I'm in the right mood so there I am.

The night was freaking fun...AW ! Thankfully I was there else I would have missed it all out.

Had a couple of drinks to kick start & meanwhile one bowl of noodles before second round get rolling..

Had a real embarrassing encounter but yet is proven that I'm still worth some value !

I'm secretly very happy deep inside... ''an shuang'' hahahah, hohhoho, hehheehe

Love being intoxication once in a while esp at the right moment as I felt unknown gently touched my face giving me some sort of comfort, chucking all my worries aside...;)

*Unknown wanted unknown to be named unknown

goOdbye colleagues, welcome my friends...

How bless I am to have these awesome colleagues that makes saying goodbye so hard and seriously I hate to say that...There's nothing more I could contribute except leaving some memories and those lame jokes of mine.

Giving a firm hand shake, saying all the best & meanwhile controlling my emotional wasn't easy!

Glistening tears formed in my eyes while it hovered for a moment; just before they fell wetly upon my checks, thank god I'm able to control due to my ego that very moment. Enduring it for any sec & looking through the expression in everyone's eyes is seriously killing me !

I'm sOrry that you guys have done so much to me ! Tot of leaving it quietly so that you guys doesn't have to fork out any moolah but somehow it doesn't work. Trust me for who I'm that I will rem all the goodwill that proposed to me and rem for life.

To my beloved GEN Y colleagues... Sorry that I din leave any gift/card behind for I know we are going to meet up very soon yea! Best of luck to fish & ruru who are preparing for their exam !

Is really been a while since I get so emotional & I hate it but to allowed my tears flow like running tap the moment I read the farewell card a few mins ago...you guys shouldn't done all these ! I look seriously ugly now okie. hahaa

Please take great care ! call me in need, be it happy or sad for I'm just 8 digits away.

I hereby sincerely thank gOd for sending these batch of ppl in my life which I couldn't have ask for more.

*Jansen ! thanks for that 1.80 PPT strawberry milkshake la! we go for photo shoot session soon hokay.

lotsa loves,

Jer 28/10/09

he made you a fool of yourself..my friend

Am I mean to sae you deserve all this? Even if it make me a devil, I'm goanna sae watever that sound harsh upfront on your face. My friend.
Don think a non-pimple face or whatsoever clean boylish look can deceived all the gers..A look from the picture of your so call bf and I knew he wasn't simple and damnit ! how true can that be. Cheated your feeling and now u come crying to me ! I seriously warned you way ahead and yet u choose to turn your head back on me. This moment, you came telling me that I have no idea about the pain you are suffering now?!! Come on ! U simply had no idea when I was pulling myself out whatever hell that I may name. After all , everything is still worthwhile for me, I give my all , my heart as an attribute and in return. How about you ?! got cheated OBVIOUSLY and still pretending away in your damn fantasy land. How can u trust a sillypore aged 20 poly BOY so easily by telling u how much he love you after he met you for a week ?! you must be watching too much fairy tales uh! For goodness sake that that can never be true in reality! Please learn to be more protective and not give in just b'cos he has got that gigolo look. Also, please stop telling me how much u love him for he is not worth your love... If he's a good man, go for it and fight for your happiness no matter what, there's no boundary at all , only bliss if you choose to believe ! Love is blind which I don deny but use your brain pls.. and lastly , stop taking any more blame ....

thou you won be able to see this entry ..I sincerely hope u WAKE UP !

he will get what he deserved to...

Blind by Jason Derulo - Jer chOrds

Never, thought that I'd say,Wished I didn't love you ever since the first date,

when you got close my heart would just stop

thought me and you together will end up on top,

you changed me for better for worse

i know i was caught up always put you first ,

i never once thought you would triflin

but oh i was blinded i was like (oh oh oh)

never want to let you (go go go)

cuhz i was opened before (i was opened before)

but now i knoww that love made me blind

so i coudln't see

all the lies you told were right in front of me

since love made me blind

you made a fool of me

you made it look soo perfect

when it wasnt meant to be

your love made me blind

cuz i, felt ya lips pressed against mine

thought the sweet smell of ur perfume is all mine

I Loved The Way You Screamed my Name

love made me blind

Risk & uncertainty

Countdown : 24 hrs

For I'm a risk taker or airhead ~ oh whatever

Brunch on sunday...

Brunch or rather lunch with my bud on a lazy Sunday afternoon is good...
The topic upfront is always how we make a fool of ourselves or others , we simply laugh and watch the second hand ticks. Food wasn't that nice but you guys perfected it ...

A thumb up for 500 Days of Summer that I watched today. The plot seem so familiar to me that many scenario/memories flash pass my mind throughout the whole show ..
Thou I have yet to get a conclusion of that movie as any impact on myself but I enjoyed the whole movie ;)

Pp : take care & have fun in your biz trip...

By fate or chance ?

Check-list

- Tidy up room , throw lotsa clothing away
- A trip down to ICA
- Swim daily (make full use of maintenance fees)
- Walk Fibi (spend more time with her)
- Get myself tanned
- More photo shoot session alone
- Revision on Acct & chiong for assignment to be done up
- Catch up with friends who have irregular work timing
- Cultivate gOod early sleeping habit
- A book on hand
- Learn to cook more dishes
- Blading once every week
- Start packing & move out anytime!
- and and...eat grass

For I have all the time in the world......

My days are numbered

Is been a week since Andre left, I felt vast, emptiness at the 7 o'clock position from where I'm sitting.
I missed the e-mail sent by him, pertaining to some stupid nonsense shit like wassup in STOMP such as who got bitten in the MRT?!
Which women hit a man in public, all the BOOMZ news in town, he has it all & update me almost every morning.
Also , the extraordinary conversation we had about serious business, political , economics & .... his usual dirty jokes.. haha
Temp staff come and go, Grace & Andre has been one of the best gift I rcv during my journey here...

I'll soon be gone for good .....or worst , I had zilch idea but is definitely worth a gamble.
Hopefully my passion lead me somewhere else & learn to be a better person as each day passby.
There is no one person in the world that fits into all kind of job, I guess I'm seriously not the ingredient to that recipes.

The hard feeling arrvied & I get emotional real easy, I'm cherishing it like it's last.
No more IM, meeting.
No more 1215 - GHOST for lunch. (Carl junior,KFC,MCD,Poeyes,driver,eastlink,CS,TM,jiak fresh, 1.80 chix rice etc)
No more kkj,nnp,gad,wuyyy,hokay,sexperience,dipdip,cheesepie,300m radius, ss, hoohoo,js,nama etc etc
No more 7-11 with JL early morning.
No more washing cup with Shan every morning.
No more pantry shopping

For all the fun & laughter we had , It shall be my responsible to keep it going...

Goodbye & god bless ~

Moment-10.42pm

Condition : @#$%!$
Mood : Sux to the max !
Itune : No Boundaries by Adam Lambert
Noise : the mystery noise u create within me
Book on hand : Accounting - John. R Dyson
Weather : hot & stuffy
Temperature : 36 degree freaking humid
Smell : ......runny nose
What's on mind : Acct sux as much as I do..& wondering if u're ok ?

Like I Always Do by Drew - Jer Chords

You gave me a reason

Told me that I'd always be yours

You are my desire

My heart is so on fire for you

I can't stop loving you, loving you

oh no Cuz I don't wanna end up in your rear view

Wanna be someone you can turn to

Baby, I never wanna lose you

No, there's nothing I won't do

So I'll watch you like a movie

I'll sing you like a song

Read you like a story, If it takes me all night long

Keep you like a secret

Tell you like a joke

It's true, it's true

That I'll love you like I always do

(Love you like I always do)

You are so amazing You stepped in and saved my life

Every time we are together

My time is yours forever

My world is all yours, all yours

phOtoshoot @ One fullertOn

I hOpe you enjoy viewing e photos as much as I do...

mOre photos can be found at FB

gimmie e strength & courage...for I'm standing still

I broke down in tears today at the alley where I use to hide with my hand holding a ciggy on a regular basis.
Enough of this whole damn thing tt I've been enduring for months or perhaps years ....No doubt tt I have been grumbling with anyone whom I met again and again till they get sick of the repetition. The advise I took in sound simple but I simply had too much constraints that's holding me back..

I did not lost my way thus I might not need any advise , maybe... you could give a push on my back and give mi a little courage &...a little support ...

Thanks for that superb dinner that it managed to balance it out a little & pull me back from depression. Not forgetting that 3 cute little socks .. haha~

Jer

Moment-8.30pm~11.30pm

Condition : Recovering from mental breakdown
Mood : Greater than an hour ago
Itune : Not listening
Noise : Ppl conversation
Book on hand : None
Weather : Cooling
Temperature : Freezing 18 degree
Smell : Food and you
What's on mind : I'm enjoying my dinner and walk

bOunce Restaurant

三人遊

有些話我選擇保持沉默　別把實話說破　隱藏我的寂寞
妳的情緒依然把我牽動　躲在妳心中　角落的心事我能懂
就算妳的愛　屬於他了　就算妳的手　他還牽著　就算妳累了　我會在這

一人留　兩人疚　三人遊　悄悄的　遠遠的　或許捨不得　默默的　靜靜的　或許很值得
我還在某處守候著　說不定這也是一種　幸福的資格
至少我們中還有人能快樂　這樣就已足夠了

Hold my hand, stoll down memory lane..is been 2 years

Came across the tailor of the movie, Halloween 2 and it remind me ..... is been 2 years ....
2 years ... neither long nor short but I remembered clearly, that was one of the best night.

Moment-12.34am

Conditon : Headache
Mood : Gloomy & sleepy
Itune : Body Language by Jesse McCartney
Noise : Car engine
Book on hand : ''The best I could'' Subhas Anandan
Weather : Fine
Temperature : Cooling 28 degree
Smell : None
What's on mind : Sleep

help them & send some guidance from above ...

Powerful typhoon makes landfall in Japan, 14 injured - Thu, Oct 08, 2009

Typhoon heads to Japan, storm stalls over Philippines - Tue, Oct 06, 2009

More emergency aid reaches storm-hit Laos - Sun, Oct 04, 2009

Vietnam typhoon death toll hits 162 as urgent aid appeal begins - Sun, Oct 04, 2009

Typhoon gathering strength near Philippines - Thu, Oct 01, 2009

Some people live for the fortune while some live for fames
Some people live for the power while some want diamond rings..
All they desire for is just a little peace.

God bless~

M.o.t.i.v.a.t.i.o.n

~MSN~

GR : nice DP !

WL : beautiful picture.. u took it ? did you update more on FB ?

Reianne : nice Dp you have got ! send mi pls

These simple sentences are all my motivational strength ! keep ME moving ~

I want to know what lOve is by Mariah Carey (Jer chOrds)

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over

I better read between the lines

In case I need it when Im older

In my life theres been heartache and pain

I dont know if I can face it again

Cant stop now, Ive traveled so farTo change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is

I want you to show me

I wanna feel what love is

I know you can show me

Im gonna take a little time

A little time to look around me

Ive got nowhere left to hide

It looks like love has finally found me

In my life theres been heartache and pain

I dont know if I can face it again

I cant stop now, Ive traveled so far

To change this lonely life

Love is .....

CarOn 21st Bday @ Singapore Botanic Garden

I was appointed the photographer on CarOn's bday as requested by her ... am glad I was given this chance to step into this smoke free zone for photo shooting yea ! But yea , it was definitely a very tough day helping her out and got my hands shivering when taking photos cos of all the heavy stuff I held throughout the day...

Thanks for appreciating my help by telling everyone how everything went earlier on... and thanks for presenting the ''award of appreciation'' to me, you got my face real red ! haha Thanks to reianne for feeding me with the ''while stock last'' salmon for you afraid tt I could not get to eat..

My apology for spending too much time living in the world of my own thou i only explore 1/8 of the place cos I'm afraid u beep beep mi back and i couldnt make it in the nick of time. =x haha
I will be more professional next time and take more photos of you .

Anyway , Botanic Garden is a real damn romantic place !!!! esp in the evening ... Iloveit !

I will be back soon ! ;)

Check out more photos at FB ;)

Grow old together , the best is yet to be..

First of all , my heartfelt congratulations to Wayne & PW who tied the knot on this beautiful day, 03 Aug 09.
Thanks for the invitation, I felt truly hourned to be able to sit in, blend into the atmosphere & witness it all...
Merely a year older than me and she's living with her another half for the next 2/3 of life... From their blissful smile, I guess they are all ready to embark on a new jOurney...

Grace and remembrance be to you both - William Shakespeare

Spread the love around,enjoy the photos.....

He look suave and she look truly gorgeous......

GONG XI GONG XI !!!! ;)