Anticipating ...

1.30 pm
Had game
Nua ....playing with dogs ..
Shopping ...
Steamboat at Geylang
12.00 am

& it’s back to reality where my tears remind me .....

?

Ppl often say ''yOu decide'' , ''yOu make your choice '' , ''up to yOu''
Can we really choose ? dO we really have a choice ?
I choose to be selfish but apparently i cant ....
is only your choice ... yOu force me to be a noble person which i really don't wish to be one.
I don wish ....

brOken Strings

It tears me up
i tried to hold but it hurts too much
i tried to forgive but it's not enough
to make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
you can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
i can't tell you something that aint real

Oh the truth hurts and lies worse

The strOng wind that hit my face , dry my tears up .


What's left of me ?

I'm just a little too not over yOu

it never crossed my mind at all

that's what i tell myself

what we had has come and gone

you're better off with someone else

it's for the best, i know it is

but i see you sometimes

i try to hide what i feel inside & i turn around you're with him now

i just can't figure it out

tell me why it's so hard to forget

don't remind me , i'm not over it

tell me why i can't seem to face the truth

i'm just a little too not over you

Memories supposed to fade

what's wrong with my heart?

shake it off , let it go

didn't think be this hardship is down , moving on

maybe i regret everything i said

no way to take it all back

now i'm on my own

how i let you go

i'll never understand

Thoughts has been running on my mind and it buffles me ...
This pic was taken today and it show what's was on my mind ,read on ..

The jOurney that lies ahead may seem uncertain to me ...
But i console myself saying .. it may be full of beautiful surprise ....
The path seem dark and my heart was conquer by fear...
I carry the hope that the sun will shine on me one day ...
and lastly .. i told myself not to expect anything too high so u will not fall too deeply..
how does tt sound ? back to square one .... sigh !

I'm upset tt i cant be there for my friends when they need a listening ear due to my hectic schedules..
I tried way and means by reminding my friends that i'm always there but i'm totally defeated .
In fact , i'm not some kind of superwomen but just a ordinary mankind on earth .
I just sux and yes ...there's nth i could do about it ..

*Orientation Day*

Started my first Saturday of year 09 sweating out ...
It begun with badminton /12.30pm-2.30pm ..
Dinner with great ppls & great foods ..
MajOng / 7pm-3am ~ lose $48..
That's my wonderful life !

*Please forgive me for leaving w/o a word, I'm just petrified to leave you once I wake up .
I decide to back off before i am left with no choice unless i can choose to stay in your dream forever.Deceiving myself is a choice i made , but is all worth it .

Random Party w Random Ppl

Finally is party time...weeeeeee!!!
Received a call very randomly from pei wen at 10pm jio-ing me down to ''Dong Ba pub''
Initially , there were only Pei Wen , Wei Wen and me ...
To my surprise ... Pen , Fang , Hansen , Sarah turn up too
Pei Wen , i must say u have your way uh huh ... ;)
Drink , games , crap....... 3am o.O

* Pictures to be upload soon*

Comfort Zone

Greeting from Jermine on 01/01/2009 -3.26am

Happy New Year !!

Alright ppl, I just wanna share smth over here ...
Let's take a couple of mins to ponder over this issue before you mOve toward '09 ya ?!

Are you in your comfort zOne ?
When coasting in our comfort zones, we don't grow. We continue to do more of the same.Maintaining a comfort zone can, paradoxically, lead to discomfort in the long run. If by being comfortable we avoid important life issues, internal tension accumulates.Eventually, as both internal and external pressures for change persist, the "comfort zone" ceases to serve us.

Are you loving someone who you cant live without or someone you can just live with ...is he/she the right choice ?
Are you loving your job with passion or just simply you get paid for working ?!
dO you have any wishes /tasks which are not fulfilled yet ?! What's holding you back ?!
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Did my words knock some sense into yOu ? ..well .. you decide your path.

I sincerely wishes all my friends lucks in their endeavour , studies ..etc etc
Most importantly .. be happy =)