Hey there stranger, how have you been
Feels like i'm standing on the outside looking in
at the mess we left behind
And it's a long way to fall
I gave you everything I had
I gave it all
And then my heart was on the line
I can't hate you
any longer
I know i'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let it go.
Say hello to goodbye, cuse its gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And i'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cuse, that was there and only then.
And this is how it has to be
Cuse' its a deadly combination, you and me
You know its undeniable
Even though we tried it all
We brought the worst out in each other
I recall
We can't act it anymore
What doesn't kill you
It makes you stronger
And though i'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let you go
And even though the tears will dry
I can't completely disconnect
Couldn't make the compromise
Didn't have a safety net
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
Sunday, February 6, 2011
CNY 2011
While everyone is having a blast in the festive season. Fighting against their diet with the pineapple tarts and the nuts. Having reunion dinner, overnight mj session and a list of events I could easily list down. I pray for a little warmth within my family, family of 4+3 sitting down on the dinning table that was bought 22 years ago which was initially meant for us dinning together.
Years after years, it never came through and I certainly do not carry any hope on it. All i wish was my mum to stop venting all her frustration on me for them not coming back. Seriously this is none of my business when things doesn't operate in one way. Is a give and take for goodness sake.
This CNY, I'm here on the very extreme end fighting against my own survival rate. No shit. Even my mum wish I get strike by the lighting but sadly it didn't came true. Deeply traumatised by this incident of bypassing the so called '' death passage way'' and did a round about back breathing again. It is definitely a gift and not a given rights.
Sitting alone in the clinic, watching the second hand ticks. you got to accept the facts that when you needed someone the most, u see no one in sight. Esp in this period, who give a shit about you.
My health is deteriorating and I never thought it could be that worst. I guess the best gift to my ''beloved boss'' was that $152 medical fees. That's something I proud of before I leave that company with no welfare. *F that.
To think I manage to survive this time, maybe that imply that I must fulfil many of those incomplete task that I've always mentioned.
May us be in good health.
Years after years, it never came through and I certainly do not carry any hope on it. All i wish was my mum to stop venting all her frustration on me for them not coming back. Seriously this is none of my business when things doesn't operate in one way. Is a give and take for goodness sake.
This CNY, I'm here on the very extreme end fighting against my own survival rate. No shit. Even my mum wish I get strike by the lighting but sadly it didn't came true. Deeply traumatised by this incident of bypassing the so called '' death passage way'' and did a round about back breathing again. It is definitely a gift and not a given rights.
Sitting alone in the clinic, watching the second hand ticks. you got to accept the facts that when you needed someone the most, u see no one in sight. Esp in this period, who give a shit about you.
My health is deteriorating and I never thought it could be that worst. I guess the best gift to my ''beloved boss'' was that $152 medical fees. That's something I proud of before I leave that company with no welfare. *F that.
To think I manage to survive this time, maybe that imply that I must fulfil many of those incomplete task that I've always mentioned.
May us be in good health.
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